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“So the last will be first, and the first will be last.” ~ Matthew 20:16

Ok, well if there was any question before, there isn’t anymore.  I have definitely caught some Brett Favre fever in the last week or so as I have just been glued to some of the proceedings of his big reception and celebration for his installment into the Green Bay Packer Hall of Fame and retirement of his number over this past weekend.  How bad has my fever gotten?  Well, this morning I just spent a little over an hour watching a full recording on youtube of the game he officially took over as quarterback for the Packers after their original quarterback (Don Majkowski) went down injured in the first quarter of their 3rd game of the season back in 1992.  Obviously I had a lot to do this morning.

I wonder though too, is there any other reason why I connect with Brett Favre and his storied career, other than just marveling over what he and the Packers were able to accomplish over the years with him under center?  In thinking about this a little bit, it came to my attention that like Brett Favre received back in 1992, I am currently waiting and hoping for an opportunity of my own to finally shine and succeed.  I am at the point where I am wondering if it will ever come or if I need to change course and do something else or something finally.  That might not be where Favre was at that point of his life, but regardless, he surely received an opportunity and totally ran with it.

For a while now I’ve been sitting with this feeling of feeling last in line in terms of things finally coming together for me and my family.  In a sense, I feel like the last one still left waiting as my wife has already been working a full-time job for a few months now and school and other things have fallen well into place for our children as this last year and a half has rounded out.  I feel ready and available, but here I wait…  Everything else has seemed to come together but just this last piece of the puzzle and here I/we wait…  

In the last month now then, I’ve taken it upon myself to finally, hopefully find at least some kind of additional work than what I currently have in my weekend, 3rd shift hospital chaplain position, and I still haven’t come across anything yet.  Just over a week ago then too, I spent the majority of a day in prayerful solitude with God as I visited a space set up to accommodate a personal day-long retreat for people.  What did I hear from God on that day?  I looked back at some of my most recent blog posts at one point, and while reading the one entitled In The Meantime” I sensed a whisper of, “Remain on the threshold!”  In other words, “It’s not time to get off yet.”

Remarkably, this message gave me a sense of peace as it relieved a lot of pressure I was placing on myself and gave me some much wanted direction.  Still today though, I wonder how long?  Any day now could come the time for getting off or crossing the threshold, but until then I am to remain.

In all of this I am easily reminded of the Parable of the Workers of the Vineyard in Matthew 20 of which the verse at the beginning of this blog is taken.  In Jesus, and the kingdom of heaven, one doesn’t remain last forever.  In fact, God gives the opportunity (and generously, vs. 15) for those last to one day finally, be first.  And not only that…  I am reminded too, that Jesus has the knack of saving the best for last as well (John 2:10).

“[God] knows, [God] loves, [God] cares,
Nothing this truth can dim.
[God] gives His very best to those
Who leave the choice with Him.”
~ Corrie Ten Boom, Tapestry poem